This Would’ve been my sucide note

The marks on her arms & her legs shows that she cares. She hides her pain knowing noone’s there. She thinks “Why did I do this agian? The pain won’t go away. I feel like its all going to end today.” The blood stains on the knife are gleaming, she screams “Does life have any meaning?” Her hearts barely beating, She need to let go. Everything begins to show, the light from above takes her. What does this death make her? As the sun rises & the morning comes? Her family finds her, they let everyone know. Soon her family & friends surround her, The cry “Oh why?” They think “Why did she do this?” She looks down from above, she sees their love. She wishes they knew there was nothing they could do. Noone could save her, because that’s what the world made her. Years of being broken down & beaten, Noone caring. Shes been through so much, rape & abuse, lies & hatred, discrimination. Welcome to our Nation. “Forgive them” She says “For they know not what they do. They broke me, but I was never whole in the first place. All of the pain choked me.” She sat in they sky wondering why, they had waited so long to show their love.

"I want someone who would bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old playstation games and then let me win. A guy who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh. He’d play with my hair and surprise me with 25 cent rings. Someone who I could share lollipops with and lay on a blanket with to count the stars. We’d buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other and squirt water guns at each other in the house. But mostly, someone who would be my best friend and would never break my heart. He would just always make me smile."

"I don’t want a perfect relationship. I just want someone who I can act silly with, someone who treats me well, and loves being with me."

"I tell you I love you every day for fear that tomorrow isn’t another"

"I want that unexpected kind of love. The one where you never know what’s going to happen next, but you trust and believe that everything’s going to be okay. You know everything will be okay, as long as you’re with him. You trust him with your head and your heart; he’s your everything. And best of all, you’re his."

"You make me smile so effortlessly."

"Every love story is beautiful, but ours is my favorite."

"If he still sees the beauty in you and still falls more in love with you after seeing your weird facial expressions, your unusual laugh, your constant bitching, your ugly days, your pig out days, the way you toss and turn in your sleep, your stupid jokes, the way you ask questions about things you should already know the answers to but he answers them anyways, your random sounds, and your immaturity. Then you already know this is the one."

"True love is so hard to find, that’s why i feel so blessed to have a heart filled with love like yours and mine"

"When i think of love i think of you…You are my whole world…my life…my heart and soul…with out you i would be a nothing i wouldn’t even be whole."